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Is Love a MistakeListen closely my dear friends, for I made a mistake
One just horridly so bad, it makes my body ache
I sat down on my bed, you see; then I fell asleep
Then my heart it beated fast; and my breath I couldnt keep
I had a dream of my best friend, now comes my mistake
I realized i am deep in love, but im afraid my heart will break
For what if she does not love me, what am I to do?
Do I just suck it up and say, "I've always loved you."?
Should I ask her to be mine, and be with her for years?
I will promise her much happiness, and i'll fight away her fears.
I want to see her smile, and I want to hold her tight
I want to kiss her warmly, and hug her every night
What if she thinks differently, what if we weren't meant to be?
What if she wants someone else, and never wanted me?
But what if she says yes, and we become a pair
What if I screw something up, and toss us in despair?
What if she grows up to hate me, and we start to split?
What if we end up broken, and she chooses to just quit?
To my Dearest Mother,Hello my dearest mother,
It's been forever since we've spoken.
All we ever did was argue,
And now we're completely broken.
Do you miss me like I miss you?
I can't imagine that you do.
And even though you hate my guts;
Please know that I love you.
My past attempts seem meaningless,
I wish that you would care.
And even though I dont know why,
I've always wished that you were there.
So, hows life going?
It's been a while.
I miss your laugh
And I've forgotten your smile.
I'm not even gonna ask,
If you've ever missed me.
By the way you keep yelling,
The answers I can see.
All you do is drink,
Drink your life away.
You tell me its my fault,
That you feel this way.
So how are you doing?
I hope you're doing well.
I'm not doing all to good,
I think that you can tell.
Don't ever try to make things right,
They'll just never be the same.
In fact if it makes you feel any better,
You can just forget my name.
You told me everything is my fault,
Im the reason for your pain;
Im the one you must d
Wither Like a Flower.....Have you ever felt so stupid?
Have you said things you regret?
Has your past ever haunted you?
Is it hard to just forget?
Can you imagine yourself,
Alone on your bed;
Talking to voices-
That are trapped in your head?
Have you ever felt evil,
Like some monsters within?
Have you ever wanted,
To just simply give in?
Well that's how I am,
Every day, every hour;
Slowly i'm dying,
Like a withering flower.
I try to tell my dad,
And I try to tell my mother,
But they say I'm acting stupid,
And that I'm just like every other.
They told me I don't know sorrow,
Said I've never felt real pain..
They said I'm acting selfish,
They said I've gone insane!
They just don't understand,
They dont know how I feel.
They think I am pretending,
But these feelings are real!
And my friends are never there,
I'm always all alone,
I have no one to talk to,
Not even on the
FearThere is something in my heart,
What it is, is hard to say.
But it will never leave me,
It will be there everyday.
I try to keep it hidden,
But somehow it breaks free.
It chases me, and haunts me,
It always stays by me.
It drags me down everyday,
I'm filled with so much dread.
It leaves me wishing everyday,
That I would just drop dead.
I'm running and I'm running,
But it still wont go away.
It still stays inside my heart,
It will be there everyday.
I am sleeping, but I'm screaming,
Because it got into my dreams.
I can't wake up, I'm all alone,
No one can hear my screams.
This thing is gaining up on me,
I cry tear after tear.
Finally it catches me,
This thing is known as fear.
It laughs at me, and beats me,
Fills my head with pain.
It taunts me, and it hurts me,
It's driving me insane.
Finally I wake up,
I drag on threw my day.
But fear will never leave,
For it is here to stay.
Don't Understand....I just do not understand,
There's tiny teardrops in my hand;
My blood is dripping on the ground,
My breaking heart's the only sound.
My heart shatters like a stone,
I don't know why, but I'm all alone.
My memories are frozen in time,
Remembering torture, remembering crime.
The wind is screaming through the trees,
Voices carried on each breeze;
Spirits try to hold my hand,
But I just do not understand.
Secrets kept, no one shall tell,
I am trapped inside a spell.
My tears are falling rather fast,
As I remember all of my past.
Towards the river I start to crawl,
I look at it and start to bawl.
It reflected evil, reflected you,
Reflected anger and lies turned true.
So many thoughts rush through my head,
My secret life is filled with dread.
This lonesome night I must wash away,
Must wash the pain of another day.
The last of my hopes, last of my love,
Just burst to flames and flew up above.
I feel my life has reached the end,
There is no way my heart can mend.
Heart of StoneYells and screams, forgotten dreams,
I'm never wanted, as it seems.
Wrists with scars that clearly show,
No one mustn't ever know.
Sitting, crying, on my bed,
All my screams, go through my head.
Trying to forget my dreams,
Trying to ignore my screams.
I'm all alone, and I am lost.
A broken heart, is all it costs.
So many chances I try to take,
But each time I try, my heart just breaks.
They're all gone, I'm all alone,
My heart just got turned into stone.
I am bullied, lost at school
I am a freak, a worthless fool.
They're all the same, I want to shout.
They all fit in, but I stand out.
I try to run from all my fears,
I try to wipe away my tears.
I keep trusting in my heart,
Hoping that i'll find my part.
Hoping to just find my place,
To be a part of the human race.
I try to smile, I mustn't frown,
So many people, I can't let down.
Sometimes I pretend that I'm okay,
I hold back the tears, and just walk away.
It's hard to pretend with a heart of stone,
Wish someone could see, that I'm al
Mental Disorder Discrimination"You said you've got depression?
No you don't, you attention seeker.
You're just an average teenager with the perfect life
Desperately looking for sympathy."
Stop crying, you coward.
You're just a childish "scaredy-cat".
Blaming your problems on a mental disorder
That doesn't even exist."
"So you're schizophrenic?
Grow the hell up, and stop acting like a child
You're too old for imaginary friends
You callow, juvenile, little twit."
But if we're attention seekers,
Why do we try so hard to hide our feelings from the world?
Why do we isolate ourselves in our rooms,
Desperately hiding the cuts on our wrists
Trying our best to live a normal life?
And if we're simply "scaredy-cats",
Why is our fear so vividly intense?
Unlike simple fear, our anxiety will stick with us forever
A severe long-lasting feeling of powerful panic.
A feeling from which we'll never be free.
Suddenly we're childish for having a mental disorder?
Schizophrenia is not something we can control.
YouIf you’re a girl, you’re a girl.
If you’re a boy, you’re a boy.
If you’re white, you’re white.
If you’re black, you’re black.
If you’re gay, you’re gay.
If you’re bi, you’re bi.
If you’re straight, you’re straight.
If you’re religious, you’re religious.
If you’re an atheist, you’re an atheist.
If you’re mentally disabled, you’re still human.
If you’re physically disabled, you’re still human.
For everything you are:
So who are they to judge you for who you are?
to me you are perfect
I do not know the reasons
for all those scars burning
against your bright skin
you've been soaking
a pain reminiscing from past
we both cannot recollect
yet you are so beautiful..
when night gets darker
and I am the one...
who's hungered to undress
the spirit of you
slowly revealing the layers
coming off from shadows
disguised in desires
craving to be fulfilled
I will caress every corner
of your silhouette
until I figure the true shape
of your heart
I will rub those blisters
softly until every nerve
of you gushes into a river
and you moan into a life
I had promised you
years ago when we began
to breathe into each other
for all the truths
I must swallow
and lessons I must learn
you are the one
I am destined to discover
what it means
to love in perfection
daydreams and monsters.she was a girl.
she ran with the moon,
chased fireflies in the bluegrass, and
watched the reflection of sunsets in rain puddles.
her name was Alice,
and she was a girl.
but to the dragonflies she was a queen,
and to the mirror she was a sister.
the moon was her prince, and the
blinking windows were the eyes
that kept her safe.
she spent her nights making wishes, and she
dragged her fingers along the shooting stars
that were tangled with her vertebrae.
her name was Alice,
and she was a girl.
her body was a river
her mind was an ocean
and her heart was the sky.
she lived in a world where
doves flew in the sea and
whales swam in the
poem for borderlinesif i could concentrate over
seven hundred thousand eyes
at the roof to the numbers stepping
from the nicities & rows
to go back
to the shattered surface
& the ripples beating over the hang
halfway between shallow
biting lips. maybe--
she couldn't have known
that it takes a whole three minutes
for the lungs to
well, maybe she
who, oh well
the white; the haze--
the booming over
the spume and spray
me get out of my head
just pull up the shutters
my tongue the weight to talk
but that's all we'll ever be:
a match burning itself out for
under the backspray of someone else's wheels
Have You Ever?Have you ever loved someone,
Who will never love you back?
Have you ever wanted freedom,
But only got a smack?
Have you ever tried to hard,
To reach a dream that isn't real?
Have you ever wondered,
When you will get your next meal?
Have you ever felt so broken,
That you cry yourself to sleep?
Have you ever wanted friendship,
But knew no one you can keep?
Have you ever felt so lonely,
That you simply lose your mind?
Have you ever felt so lost,
But no one you can find?
Have you ever felt so stupid,
That you forgot your own name?
Have you ever wanted trust,
But the lies are all the same?
Have you ever cried so much,
That your eyes simply run dry?
Have you ever wished and hoped,
That you could just go die?
Have you ever lost everything,
And everyone you knew?
Do you know how all this feels?
Cause most certainly, I do....
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