I'd rather be aloneI enter the room all eyes on me.

Side way glances as if I don't see.

I walk down the aisle and I take my seat.

This is where I'm gonna be for five days this week.

I can feel their hate from across the hall.

Those people they hate me and wish I would fall.

Unwanted is what they have always shown.

And honestly, I would rather be alone.

They tease me with their words as if it don't hurt.

They treat me as if I'm disgusting and dirt.

And sometimes I would just let it slide.

I would try to contain the feelings I hide.

I try to do my best but I really just fail.

And spectators would make up a new winding tale,

Of how my bad attitude is

Getting WorseI pick up the blade,
And set it on my wrist,
The world starts to fade,
When I know I can't resist.

That's just the start,
And it doesn't stop there,
It breaks my heart,
As I find out you care.

But the things get worse,
I start hitting my head,
Until it hurts,
And I fall on my bed.

My head hits the wall,
Once more,
Then I fall,
To the floor.

Air chokes my breath,
As I struggle to move,
It smells like death,
And I start to sooth.

I'm sorry I did this,
It's my weakness,
You are what I'm going to miss,
When I go into darkness.

PerfectionI can't keep up with perfection
I want to jump and close my eyes
But I'm chained by my obsession
I know without it I could fly

If this is how it feels to be afraid
If this is what I'm meant to be
Letting all time slip away
While trying to be what I should be

I won't become the pure perfection
I'm getting caught out in the rain
Only worsened by reflections
Of a lost life and its remains

In the PastMemories shattered.
Lost in my past,
and I cant get
through.

Trapped but content
in this little window
where none pass....

How can I not take
the comments to heart
when you are
a part
of me.

Lost in what I called the past
Lost in shattered time
Lost in what I call time
Lost and alone

In a small temple,
flowers lay around me
and tears stain the concrete
as I think of your shining eyes

I reach out,but the link is broken
and broken it will stay
you told me,and so did she
It will remain this way.

How can I break the door
to my future,
when the whereabouts are unknown
the rain of the past will pin me down

All About YouSitting in a corner
Thinking about you
The next part of my life
And I don't know what to do

The world goes by
And it moves too fast
There's just no way
I could ever make it last.

The winding streets
Seem longer to me
Keeping me away
From the places I want to be.

Your memory
Like a mirror in spring
Fogs up my vision
Of things I need to bring.

I don't need you
And I don't need your lies
The longer you stay
The more my heart dies.

Taking back your things
Please don't forget the tears
The ones you brought to me
I've still kept them through the years.

So I catch a falling star
And wish a little harder
Cause sadly I real

child abusemy mommy yells and screams at me
until i can hear no more
she hits me
leaving me to bleed on the floor
then she yells some more
telling me how worthless i am
what did i do to make her hate me so?

my daddy gets home
he beats me repeatedly
then he tells me to go
to our cold cold basement
tonight i will not eat even a crumb

they leave me locked in the basement
i just lay there wondering
will i ever see the light of day again

they finally open the door
mommy tells me to play nice
she says were going to have company
she feeds me and bathes me
and puts me in a pretty dress

people show up
i think its cps
whatever that means

Solitary Song...I listen to your heartbeat
It's solitary song
The rhythm beating faster
It's desperate to belong

I don't know if it's real
or what is meant to be
The only thing I'm sure of is
I want you here with me

I hold your body tighter
But my efforts are in vain
I cannot make you love me
Or take away your pain

I'm hoping maybe someday
I'll be your number one
As you and I explore
This thing that they call love

I can't describe my feelings
No matter how I try
Can I stay here in your arms?
I promise not to cry...

Wont Celebrate7 years ago today, I lost my closest friend
It's all because of me, her life came to an end

People say I'm crazy, say i've gone insane
They just do not realise, i've only gone through pain

Some people say she's fake, she was never real
Have you ever thought about, how that makes me feel?

I've been told by many, She's my imagination
And everything about her, was just my own narration

But I no longer care, about everything they say
I know she is real, and still is to this day <3

Although I may never, again look into her eyes
The friendship that we had, still never dies

I hope that she is happy, forgives me for what I did
Forgives me fo

LiesYou said you'd always be there for me,
But when I need you,
You always leave

Don't lie to me,
You're never there,
And when I ask you for help,
You ignore me.

For once,
Be there when you say you will,
Don't leave me,
When I need you.

Broken DoveWill someone please give flight
To this broken dove
Show her happiness
tell her she is loved

Will someone please just help her
Lend her a gentle hand
Raise her in a way
That she can understand

Will someone please just notice
She's broken her small heart
And slowly, every second
her worlds falling apart

She pleads for your forgiveness
She begs you for your love
Please will someone notice
This hollow, dying dove...

VoicesThe voices overwhelm me
They overcome me
I can feel everything
Their thoughts
Their emotions
Squirm beneath my flesh
Burn inside my mind
I feel everything.

It becomes too much
Then they're silent
The world outside becomes surreal
And suddenly I'm numb
I can't cry
I can't escape
I can't breath

Its too late... I felt it coming.
I screamed-- I cried-- I clawed my nails into reality
Just trying not to get sucked inside

But I'm already gone.

Do You Remember?Do you remember that poem you wrote me?
Well, I found it the other day.
It was in my jacket pocket.

I didn't know one piece of paper
Could bring back so many memories.
It's amazing how long it has been
Since you gave it to me.

I am thankful that
I had you in my life.
All the good and bad times,
They made us that much stronger.

Thank you for coming into my life.
Thank you loving me.
I couldn't have asked for anything better.

So you see what a simple
Piece of paper with words on it can do.
It made me remember why I cared so much.
It made me remember you,
So thank you for writing it.

Never Bow Down. (Failure In Denial)Your poisoned words are your weapon of choice,
Paralyzing me with just the sound of your voice.
Whispering your lies and getting under my skin,
But I can see right through you 'cause you're so paper thin!

Are you really so heartless?
Behind your lies is there any truth?
Can you tell I don't want this!?
I will never bow down to you!

You say across my skin is where my short comings compile,
And that my scars remind you I'm a failure in denial!
No matter what you've always had the upper hand,
Holding me under for reasons none understand!

GOD DAMN!!

Are you really so heartless?
Behind your lies is there any truth?
Can you tell I d

Story of my lifeThis is the story of my life
It is tragic
It ends so fast
It started in trouble
Went on
Went black
Went darker
Just wish I could carry on
It will end upside down
With me on the ground
The tears in my face
Fallen from grace
A knife, so cold
Me, so left alone
Blood, running away
I wish I would have strength to stay
Goodbye, Wish you well
I hope you laughed when I fell
Goodnight, have sweet dreams
This was the story of my life how it seems

I kiss you good nightI kiss you good night
And then I'm ready to die

Remember me as alive
Keep the memories
But don't cry
Tears won't do the justice
I'd rather see you smile
Up above from the sky

Believe in good
Believe in evil
Don't seek the truth
Cause it will kill you

Believe in life
Believe in death
Don't break your heart
It's all you have

Be happy
Be sad
Be something
Just stand

Live freely
Kiss slowly
Love madly
Die noble

I kiss you good night
And go slowly to die

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by ~xXWitherXx, Jan 5, 2013, 5:37:53 PM
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I’m hollow, I’m broken
I’m bleeding, I’m dead.
My mind keeps on spinning
Something’s wrong with my head

Insanity maybe? Or maybe it’s more
I’m hurting, I’m dying
My heart’s become sore

I’m laughing, I’m pleading
I’m asking for help
I’m screaming, I’m yelling
I’m starting to yelp

Can you hear me? Am I here?
Am I still alive?
Am I scared? Am I in fear?
Will I somehow survive?

Is there something inside me?
Ripping me apart?
Is there something wrong?
Something wrong with my heart?

Is it beating? Is it even there?
Is my mind running off?
Do you even care?

Am I alone? Or can you see?
Can see my misery?

Why am I grinning,
When I am in pain?
Am I still me?
Am I still sane?

Do I know you? Do I not?
Who am I? Cause I forgot

Am I a loser? A nothing? Or even a zero?
Am I your friend? Your lover? Your hero?

Am I shadow? A figment? Or your imagination?
Am I the cause of all your frustration?

Do you hate me? Do you love me?
Do you know who I may be?
I’m confused, I am lost, I’m all alone
Don’t you see?

Is there something wrong with me?
Have I lost my mind?
Am I nice person? Pleasant? And kind?

Am I rude? A jerk? Or maybe a freak?
Am I a nerd? Invisible? Or even a geek?

Will I ever be okay?
Will I see another day?

If I die, would you be sad?
Or would maybe just be glad?

Would you beat me? Rape me?
Throw me to the floor?
Cut me? Stab me?
Hang me by a door?

If I stay alive, would you treat me this way?
Would you do these things, every single day?
Would you shoot me? Drug me? Try to make me dead?
Why am I all messed up in the head?

Am I noticed, was I ever free?
Who am I? Am I still me?
No, now I’m insanity!

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~Mistle11411 Mar 9, 2013 Student General Artist

cool poem.

~xXWitherXx Mar 9, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

thanks

~Mistle11411 Mar 10, 2013 Student General Artist

Your welcome!

~NightsCreature Feb 2, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

I can so relate to this. Awesome piece the flow was perfect.

~xXWitherXx Feb 3, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thanks you

~NightsCreature Feb 3, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

My pleasure ^^

~hnm114 Jan 15, 2013 Student General Artist

Amazing work as always hun.

~xXWitherXx Jan 15, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

thanks

~MaskedWannabee Jan 6, 2013

Wow, awesome, love the poem, keep up the good work

~xXWitherXx Jan 7, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you!

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